Possession [EN]

Harry 13.11.13

 All I could think about was that Josh wouldn't be thrilled with my doing. But I couldn’t help my thoughts, now more than ever. The feeling of hesitancy I felt was unbearable. I was torn between consciousness full of unexpected disclosures and absolute lack of memory or any awareness whatsoever. I didn't know what to do with time I was given on the days I actually woke up. With new changes scattering my body I was despairing for some impact that was actually caused by me. I was still undecided what exactly to do, but some action has to be made. I had to take back at least some of the control. My final blink of an eye was given while going back to glares Josh used to send me to keep me on tracks on especially bad days.I woke up with a scream still on my mouth. The overly intense feeling of anxiety have taken over my body. I've breathed rapidly not really inhaling air.
Jenna's face appeared over me. I realized I was lying in my bed, for the first time since Josh's death. In that second I could feel my whole body: from scalp through veins and arteries to the tips of my toes.
“It's going to be okay, Harry”, she soothed, her hand on my cheek. Brown eyes looked away just as my green ones caught their glance. Jenna cleared her throat and took a deep breath. “It's over now,” she divulged more to herself than me. I couldn't help that to feel the huge weight that was lifted from my chest hadn't exactly been halved on us both.